Sunday, February 4, 2018

Using Music To Fight Back

If you have read my blog for a while you will know that I tend to write for a series of articles and then pause for quite a while afterwards.  I am highly reflective and although this form of communication helps work out my thoughts and challenges, it also brings new questions that sometimes take weeks to work out.  I will share my example.

Over the past 2 years I had a lot of healing to do, but I did not let my poor health stop me from planning along the way and planting seeds which would help as I moved forward.  I have challenged myself along the way as well, and each challenge completed brought new opportunities.  If my highly active brain is nothing else, it is patient and loves to plan and problem-solve.  I finally used this natural skill and applied it to my own life in every possible aspect along the way.

Anyone who has read my articles on narcissism knows that I have had some resentment issues to work out along the way, and I have done my best to deal with them in positive ways, but I also could not help and poke the narcissists in my life when I got the chance.  It provided a little short term satisfaction I suppose, but the true intent of it was to create a little anxiety and fear in the narcs in an attempt to spark some sort of empathetic reaction, but I am guessing all I caused was feelings of fear and frustration. I think they use to call this 'tit for tat'.

I always had a few long term goals for if and when I had healed from the psychological abuse I suffered at the hands of a toxic 'Queen Bee' narcissist.  One of the goals that drove me was having the ability to finally fight back in a positive and meaningful way so that the abuse of others will stop.  When I say fight back, I mean to expose the behaviours of the narcissists involved and hopefully have them removed from their public positions at some point in the future.

I am tired tonight so I will do my best to keep this short and to the point.  I have 'poked' at the narcs along the way, but I believe at some point it will be time to 'shove' them.  The hard part was determining how to do that and still serve my own inner purpose at the same time.  I knew that I would require recognition and have a way to get the attention of people in order to fight my fight, but talk about a difficult task for a guy who is quite humble and does not like that sort of attention.

Well I found a way, and I also found some of my gifts from all the pain and suffering I was caused, and they will also give me the ability to gain the attention I require in a positive way.  I took a moderate skill I had been working at for 30 years and finally went for it, I learned to truly play my guitar very well, and my singing voice has improved dramatically over the past few months.  I also have used my writing abilities to create several songs for an album i am currently putting together.
You can check out some of my progress here if you like Rational Rhythms

My point is that I want to push back and expose issues in my small community and I now have the means and strength to do so.  Good local musicians get a lot of recognition here because there is little to do and they stand out in the small crowd.  I am going to use my music to reach out to the public and share my stories along the way.  If my pokes didn't bother my enemies too much, I expect my future 'pushes' will hit home in a much more meaningful way.

Narcissists are completely consumed with their public image, so if you are looking to fight back, start there.  Don't slander or do anything illegal, just get the attention of those around and tell the truth.  That is how we take bullies down! 

Wednesday, January 31, 2018

Time To Create Action

I have obviously not written in a while, but thought i would share a quick note today.  I have been focusing my time on music and song writing, and have little energy left to type on my keyboard at the end of the day.  The results of my practice are excellent, and are moving my plans forward to sharing my knowledge on the streets this coming spring. 

I share this to let you know that good things can come out of psychological abuse, but it is certainly hard to see those things when our minds are trapped in the darkness created by narcissists and sociopaths in our world.  The fun part is truly starting now for me, and the healing is almost complete.  After more than 2 years!!

Now that I have dealt with my resentment issues directed towards my abuser, I am finding so much more peace than I ever have in my life.  I learned much, but the lessons were definitely not easy.  I will be taking my new skills to the streets soon and fighting back against our local systems in a positive way.  I do have certain targets who have lessons to learn, and I can't help but look forward to this part of it, and it also reminds me that all of my resentment is not completely eradicated or I would still get feelings of delight at the thoughts of retribution.

Either way, all I have to do is continue to grow and be ME, and the fruits of my labours will spring up all around me.  It is happening all around me as I re-engage the world.  For those who still creep my blog and social media to check up on me, I am offering a friendly reminder that I am still here, and you will all be hearing a lot more about me in the coming months.

 I have enjoyed many of the rumours being shared about me too, they give me something to chuckle about from time to time.  Especially when I likely started half of them just to identify who would share them freely.  I do appreciate you identifying yourselves so I have a better idea of who to watch out for in my future journey.

I look forward to seeing many of you in the coming months, because whether the experience is good or bad for you, it will be growth for both of us.  I just get the feeling I will enjoy it much more than they will.

Know thy enemy, but know them without judgment if you truly want to be prepared!

Namaste and good day

Tuesday, December 5, 2017

Music: Healing From Narcissist Abuse

As we heal from any sort of abuse, we need to find positive things to focus on to pull us out of the toxic mind.  One of the things I do is write about things that have caused me pain, and share details in an empathetic way in order to help others who are trying to solve similar issues.  I like to write about my abuser/s and share some of their antics from a different perspective, a reflective and more objective one. 

I call the behaviours of a narcissist antics, because it helps me to look at it in a more comical light, even though there is little humour in the abuse of a narcissist.  The humourous perspective can help to ease any fears we have still within us.  I have been forming and writing a little about the satire I spoke of in past articles, and i will soon have a couple of the first ones ready.  

I am writing the first one in regards to the 'supply' a narcissist requires to maintain their ego illusion.  They need their supply like an alcoholic needs a drink.  That is why I have used a play on words in regards to my own narc abuser to create the main character of my satire.  The name I have come up with is quite funny to me, but i won't share it yet because it is very similar to the name of the person I speak about in many of my articles.

My other positive distraction is music.  I play a guitar well and do my best to sing along. I have written quite a few original songs over the past few months and will slowly be putting them up on my You Tube channel at Rational Rhythms, in case you want to see the person behind these words.  As I look for balance within myself, and continue to remove the last residual effects of my abuse, I use music writing as my main positive outlet.  

Although many of the songs I write are about positive things, I have a couple that I will share eventually in regards to the evil of narcissists.  One of them is called 'The Evil Narcissist in Sturgeon Falls, it is a bluesy rock song with a little anger behind the words.  I am hoping it will be quite effective in helping to expose her 'behind doors' behaviours.

If there are other article topics you would like to see, please email or comment.  I will try not to get too distracted from writing here and will attempt to write several each week. 

Be Well and have a wonderful day!!